Vulnerable confession time: I’m admitting that I took on too much & need to step back. And you know what, that is completely okay.
This past October, I took on a part-time job in retail for the holidays. At first, I thought that I could handle this on random weekends and then during the Thanksgiving and Christmas season. I quickly learned that yes, I could handle this job when things were great, but struggled deeply when additional issues, projects, and other things were put on my plate. I really was hitting a breaking point a few weeks ago and after getting sick (again) because I’m not taking care of my body, I stepped away from my part-time season job yesterday. And you know what, I feel GREAT.
Sometimes we need to say no to things in order to heal, to recover after a very busy time, and to recreate time to care for ourselves. If I worked one job and had very few additional responsibilities, I may have been able to handle it. This semester I’ve been balancing 2 classes and a practicum, an assistantship where I supervise 17 RAs and can only be there 2 full days a week, supporting my family through ups and downs, wedding planning, and managing other things (i.e. leadership roles, extra responsibilities). I. Am. Drained. My work ethic is also too strong to half-ass my job (which is what I was doing). If I can’t put my 100% into something, I need to prioritize and reflect on my decisions.
So now, I’m creating time for self-care this winter break. I’m prioritizing myself and my family. I’m also mentally preparing and getting organized for the SA Job search early next semester (AHHHH). I will be reading young adult books in my jammies and getting coffee with my sister. And honestly, that’s what I need for my sanity. If you can cut back in an area of your life to take care of yourself, DO IT. I recognize that many aren’t always in this privileged position, especially with a second job, but there are still ways to create space for you. Even if it is just saying “no” to taking an extra shift at work or an extra project from a coworker. Here’s to making 2019 a year of saying “no” when I want, saying “yes” to opportunities that grow me, and focusing on my physical, mental, and spiritual health to the best of my ability.